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Note to self.


Will people understand me? My words? Will they read me? What will they feel? Relatable or unrealistic? These questions cross my mind every now and then.

I don’t want to live the kind of life, everyone around me are living. Scheduled, timed and monotonic to be glued to specific boundaries and limits. I don’t want to be those kind, maybe I can’t be. I wasn’t born to be like them. I feel like the wind, the air, omnipresent but not still. I wanna be around everything, learn everything and anything new. I wanna explore. I wanna know. I want to learn, be inspired. I also want to give, to teach, to guide, to inspire.

I can’t be stuck between the real me and the survival me, who is just being another human who is competing with everyone in this crazy world and society. I don’t want to prove or show anyone, anything. It never bothered me. Yeah, to my parents? Yes. Always.it always did and does…

But until when??? 

If I wanna live real, I need to speak. If I want an extraordinarily life, I should be ready to face the end number of difficulty and downs. If I want to fly, I should not fear of falling from high. I need to gear up my everything, my every cell together and energize.

One of the prove of my courageous decision was to get ink on my skin for lifetime. That was my decision without fearing for the consequences from my parents. I was brave enough that time, I guess. When I was younger, I feel I was more liberal and stronger than now. I fell in love without fearing of heartbreaks and disappointments. Whereas nowadays, a pinch of fear shadows around me all the time.

My voice needs to be clear again. My thoughts needs to nenefree free. My words need to be beautiful and real. So again, my heart could understand what it wants. I need to fall in love again… I need to live. I need to be free…even from myself, I feel.

Finding the real me
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Live or Die…


Live or Die,
Either way you don’t survive.
Smile or Cry,
Nothing gonna change in a short while.

Sustained strength,
To keep your hope alive,
Will one day force the nature,
To achieve what you waited all time…

Replenishing your desires,
Each time it gets shrunken aside.
Be forced with determinations,
Everything one day, will be set all right.

If you don’t live for something,
You will die for nothing.
Atleast make a choice to live,
To divine, you have something to give…

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My daily thought – (7)


     Everything has an end. And that is the point when there is a start for something new. I had failed up doing many things. But these failures thought me the reasons and the faults for why I failed. These made me grow and now am done with it. I don’t need him. I have realized that things can be much better if I live my life as I desire.
      It’s not as if I am speaking as per my experience but I have seen people living as dead with what their loved one dream off.
Why can’t we live as per our rules and limitations? Just think and answer yourself..
Are you really happy with what you doing today???
Did you really wanted this to become? Was this your dream?  You have accepted all what you never dreamt off only because life has giving you no choice…
    “NO”.. it was you who choose to be this.
Life would have been much more better if little effort would have put on to make it real. Don’t blame people or loved ones for what you suffering now, its not because of them. It’s because you accepted all the change others demanded for in you.
Still there is time… life never ends… Everyday is itself a new beginning…
Think and make a little effort towards what your heart says… live life to it’s fullest.

So today’s thought…,
“I will only do what my heart says and what makes it happy and peace, as I don’t want to sit and regret on my older years.”

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My daily thought – (3)


After a long try, I could manage to set up my self to concentrate on my books as only few days lefts for the finals.
I started with set tragets and by the time I realised that it was done, I came across a thought that I had completed the studies in the confined time I had decided.
Even with lot of disturbance and distraction that came on my way,
I had managed to over come them and that too with very less efforts.
In between I even tooks breaks to relax like played songs, games and even blogging, the best thing that makes me smile and relaxed.
By the end of the I had done my job and completed the set target and was feeling so dame happy as if I have achieved something so great.
And then it was a big achievement to reach the goal and concentrate even with lost thoughts and feelings along with its creating disturbances….. I had managed to do it.

So today’s thought….
” The time you decide to do something,
Be firm and set up an desired target,
If you really wanna achieve it,
You will surly be able make it with little bit of efforts you put in with heart”

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My daily thought- (1)


You had told me last night you’ll cal me.
Even thought I knew you wouldn’t be able to make it by some or other reasons.  I waited till 11.30 and then kept cel on normal mode with highest frequency. And slept.
Got up at 5 with sudden jurk and scolded myself for not replying for your calls due to deep sleep. I ran to check my mobile phone.  And here I see…. There are no cals nor any msg left. You didn’t called last night I realised. Sadly I returned and lying down on bed,
I realised that may there be reasons for not keeping your words and ditching me like this. But things have really changed And I have to accept the fact.
It’s not just easy to accept this change in our relationship but the cruelty is that I have to even if my heart doesn’t desire off.
Each day with a hope that it will get better but it seems so difficult that its impossible to keep it even normal.

So today’s thought…  “Never give yourself to someone so much that when that person leaves you.., you are left out with nothing but only emptiness. “

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SURRENDERING.


I was born with nothing,
Than why is this fear of lossing you?
I was not giving anythng,
Than why is this emptyness in me?
Each desire I packed in a case,
I dont want them now in any case.
Expectations which grew in me,
Disappointment was left all in hand you see.
Desire to reach the top of achievement’s roof,
All broke me and made me droop.
No love, no war- it said,
I am all lost in this field at the end.
Food, clothing and shelter is all what we need to live,
No more emotion in me will now fill in.
Hands emptied and heart distressed,
Surrendering everything left to come out of this mess.
Living is all what I wanna continue,
Divine seeks only the purity of soul I knew.

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And It rained again….


The clouds covering all the shine,

Making the creatures aware of the dine.

The droplets rushed themselves to the ground,

And it rained again, washing away all my pain.

Heavy Downpour

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Body’s wounds got cleared by the water’s touch,

Heart’s fire got extinguished by the rain’s gush,

Peace surrounded me from all the core,

Oceans of love guided me to reach the shore.

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And it rained again….

Healing away all my pain.

Curing my heart-break and the hat-red,

Making me alive and living once again!!!!

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“Everybody wants happiness,

Nobody want’s pain,

But you can’t have a rainbow,

Without a little rain!!!” 🙂

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