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Mid-Night Tale.


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It’s 2:36am, on my lappy and I am not feeling any pint of sleep in my eyes. It’s raining heavily outside. I just went to the window to glance the most romantic atmosphere spreading cosy and lazy environment. And I am awake. This happens on occasions now a days. Daily insomnia is been replaced by seasonal once. I am wide awake with all our random thoughts travelling across my mind, I smile. Many such tales are hidden and forgotten but lived at such mid-nights.

My heart feels you around, it’s beats fast and loud so you can hear, how it is missing you. I never deny sharing my emotions. Let it be through poems, thoughts or any random comments or statements, you are always on my mind.
It’s been a year when I turned symptomatically insane for your love and you ignore. Even today, you ignore. You are not changed at all. I like it. You know what but I am a new version of my own creation, I love you still. I miss you like I did years back and do everyday. But now since you aren’t any more present in my life, since you have moved away, I can’t and don’t want to bring you back into my world. just a hope one day you’ll return. I don’t cry now. I don’t get depressed.
Fingers crossed!!!
You know life is changed, I think of loving again. But can love happen by thinking or mere ask the brain tissues to fall in love again? I don’t think it happens. It’s not happening with me at least. I try because I am unsure about your arrival. I keep going because I am in mislead about your thoughts. I seriously wanna know what you feel afters years of ignorance? Do you already have moved on in life? Have you forgotten the craziest things we did? Have you been capable of erasing all the memories we shared? Have you achieved in your goals to vanish me forever from your life? OR do you still in love with me?

And if you do, why aren’t you showing it?
or if don’t, why can’t I see you moving on in life?
It’s you who had asked me to smile each time we cross after our break-up. I do smile when I see you. But do you do that?
Where are you? In which phase of life are you living? In which transaction are you stuck-up?
If you have, show me so I can try harder this time to love again or at least appreciated the one’s who prove to love me. And if haven’t than let me know, so I can wait for you till infinite…Yaah!!! I can do that. Only if you tell me to wait.

So just thinking if you have read our love story which I had emailed you, is now on the verge to be a book. And if you went through it, you might have noticed that their is no end to it. Last few chapters are just left blank and empty. because this is how I feel our end was. No end to our love story.??? So, what should I do, manipulate a happy end to it and start with publishing stuffs or should I wait for the end to happen happy in a real sense?
Because people say “If it’s not happy at the end, it’s not the end, nature has still few more chapters to add”
So what should I do? Write something which is not real or wait or write the new personality who proves to love me with acceptance of my past and present scenario because that person is ready to wait but have a deadline since he don’t wanna end up being one of my kind. My streets are waiting for you. Will you arrive any day, someday??? I am really confused!!!

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Maybe I am being selfish asking you to return so my book can have a happy ending. But this is the way I still love you. This is the way I still image you and me hugging each other in rain at my hostel gate where you waited for me to come back from college, so you can grab me in your rugged arm, place me against your stoned heart and say, “Baby I love you and can’t move on in my life without you” and than we live together and forever like in all love stories do.
But you know what at the end, it only you whom I can love again.

Sometimes it’s good to express rather than waste each moment living in confusion and questions. I could have mailed you this but you wouldn’t have replied and left ignored. It still hurts when you leave things unanswered like you did years back. But this is the way I feel for you. I visualize you and me walking in rain pouring outside. This is the way I think about you. I am being true. This is the way I love you. This is the way I am in love with you again.

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LIFE, LOVE, PHOTOGRAPHY..., POEMS

Do u feel me??


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In the morning sunshine,
You are like the shine,
Which makes me glow,
You are like the light,
Which makes me grow.
But do u feel me like this???

When the afternoon seizes,
You make me go lazy,
Do no efforts to do anything,
You make me go sleepy,
With the comfort and getting cozy.
But do u also feel me like this???

In the evening sunset,
Your like the sharp in sky,
Which keeps me inspire,
Your like the shades around,
Which keeps my heads high,
But do u feel me like this???

In the nights light,
You are like my twinkling star,
Which make me shine bright,
You are the hope for new day,
Which makes me believe that things will turn out to be right,
But do u feel about me like this???

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I don’t want you…


I don’t what you,
But I want you to be happy,
I don’t think of you,
But I wish your happiness…
It’s you, who make me smile at the end.
It’s you, who make me feel alive.
It’s you, who know me better,
But you know what,
I don’t want you again.

It was like forever,
It was a dream come true,
I was with you and you with me,
At the end of the day…
But I don’t want you…
I don’t really want you…
I don’t need you..
Just need you to be happy…!!!

I don’t what you,
But I want you to be happy,
I don’t think of you,
But I wish your happiness…
It’s you, who make me smile at the end.
It’s you, who make me feel alive.
It’s you, who know me better,
But you know what,
I don’t want you again.

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The shades of loneliness…


When I was been built,

I was happy and gay  to meet new people everyday,

People came on me and all went,

But no-one to stay constantly,

Although I was lonely street,

With all my firmness and hopes….

I wanna live forever and help all the footprints made upon me…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

When I got broken into small mud,

Was slowly being made into dust,

Although I was lonely hill,

With all my pride and head high….

I wanted to stand still throughout my life…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

When I learnt to fly alone,

My crew left me in wide and spaced around,

Although I was lonely bird,

With all my efforts and strength….

I wanted to learn to be free and independence…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

When I got detached from my roots,

I flew along the wind,

Although I was a lonely leaf,

With my ups and down….

I wanted to feel the sky and set myself free…

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My love for him gets lost forever…


Within a second my life changed,

All my dreams washed away in rain.

As the season of water arrived,

The tears in my eyes flooded every night.

Each dark day went having a thought,

How will I live the rest of my life?

I cannot be with you nor without,

As the season will go, you will slowly be cleared out.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Every drop of rain makes me think of you,

That’s the reason why, I get daily wet in dew.

Please lord… let the season go… in the watery day,

I don’t want it to happen more.

Your thoughts, your love, I don’t want it anymore.

Let me forget you, your presence now a day hurt me more.

It’s not your fault, its mine I know,

That the reasons I don’t want to punish you anymore.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I don’t deserve you nor your love,

It is my deadly lives don’t make it more tough.

The situation I am in, no one will understand,

Words will say nothing just emotion is making all the plan….

Getting wet in rain why I love so much,

It only because in rain, nobody knows I am crying in pain…

With drop of tear, I want to clear you away, so as rain goes…

I will realize that you were never there.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I left you alone today, on the drizzling street,

One day, your feelings for me will be all deplete.

Water arises each day with the heavy fall,

Still my heart is waiting for god’s indicating call.

Let it get more flooded with every heavy shower,

So that with it, my love for him gets lost forever….

 

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They and he unchanged to me….


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Each day when my sleeps depart,

I search myself in the morning dark.

Mirror images are fading now days,

Finding the lost girl in the hidden phase.

Dressed up, covered with a smile on my face,

So, that mom would not recognize the change in my ways.

As I step out of the gate,

I make false smiles and happiness as my dearest mate.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Living in the world of new friends,

Its hard not to miss the past friendships ends.

Meeting him everyday has become a routine,

Still heart misses the old days dating.

Some things are changing or the change is in me?

The emotions, which I have, is slowly depleting…

Fighting with each relation, my heart is in a fix,

Don’t know what to do; my mind is completely in a mix

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The time I am with him, he makes me feel his love,

As I think of my parents, there loves comes all above.

Understanding them, understanding him,

Where is the time to understand myself?

The dreams, which once my eyes felt are all depleting and coming to an end.

Evening approaches again with many queries,

Mind is prepared but heart is still overflowing with many worries.

Night is the toughest episode of my days,

All my love for both of them, start pouring down my face.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Heart cries deep inside,

But the tears come each night.

Mom and dad gave me life,

It’s with him I knew, how to live my life.

They gave me the destiny but the root is he,

Will they some day stop asking, who is important?

 Because they and he are the unchanged for me.       

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My journey of a few hours…


 

 

I was born in the morning,

In a form of a dew.

As small I was, I wanted to grow,

In the company with few.

I opened my eyes,

When it was still dark.

But a hope of sunshine,

Lead my path.

From the sky i dropped

To the lowest and smallest leaf,

As i reached on it

I got a little grip.

I started to glow,

As the light hit on my face.

As the day walked ahead,

The heat set to increase.

It started burning me,

I vaporized in sky.

As i moved upward again,

I learnt the meaning of LIFE.

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“YOU”- a girl with great and firm desire..


I wanna make the sun shine less in front of me..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

FIGHT each second upon the defeat made before.

WIPE each tear, which once made you scare and weak.

WALK each step to cover the miles you left behind.

It’s “YOU”,

A girl with great and firm desire within enveloped with harms and surrounded by the selfish world outside.

 

You have your failures to be with you,

Need no one to guide the ways you step ahead now.

You have your lack of abilities to show you,

The ways to reach the clouds above.

You have the world, who called you dumb,

And learn from the mistakes they made.

You also have the hope to rise,

Each and every time you fall and are aside.

You have your heart, thoughts and deeds, which will lead and teach you to capture your dreams and touch the seventh heaven of the skies…

 

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A lonely wandering bird…


a lonely wandering bird…

Wandering lonely in wide space,

Searching for some happiness,

Even in the saddest place.

I admire all other birds all in a troop,

Flying in the contentment of being amongst the group.

Everyday, I sit on the tree feeling all alone,

With the hope that some day, there will be someone and my loneliness will be gone.

Today, as the sun raise, I planned to fly in search of friendly mate,

I flew so far; so far, I went and reached to the pile straight.

There was charming part which attracted me,

It was a small purple lily waving happily.

I went to her and said, “How can you be so happy when you are alone?”

She smiled and replied, “When the nature itself is with me in every form here shown.

The air, the light, the beautiful sight and very thing you see,

Just turn around and you will see you are not lonely frown.”

Her every words changed my heart and it felt so happy, that it felt its happiness will never depart.

 I turned to move back my home,

Where the happiness is in plenty of form.

I smiled and said to myself, “The happiness I was searching was already there within me.”

Happiness in everywhere,

It on us to notice and try to see…