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“Panic love attacks…” Are you suffering from it???

A latenight text to my girlfriend.,
“You know what… I got d reason for my depressive love attacks…
Its my period weak,
As my dates approaches,  all these thoughts about my past, which I never wanna remember as I want to… always comes with a flashback… I offen think what it would be if there goes a month without thinking about him… he is gone n I very well know that…
But why this happens…
I wanna make my heart totally empty to make space for others a chance to get in… but as of now.. I don’t know what to do.
There still arises a question in my heart,  do I still love him or can I still love only him in future… but I know I can give a chance right…
I know am strong and all those stuff…
Like I have moved on… and all those bullshits words…
Bt am I really,
It’s like I curse him bt instantly,  pray that d curse should not come true,
I howl on him at certain days for what he did, but I forgived him long time ago…
I know things are like, he is the chapter of my life which is shut close, but there is still a hope and carve to get him back some day… I know I should not say this… but right now just feeling all this.. so just speaking up..
His status say, ” Go behind what you want in your life to get it..” or something similar to it… I don’t remember.
Hey, don’t think I am following him, just a side glance on the whatsapp status on my roommates cell. Ya she still has his number.
Oky so what does it reallly means???
What he wants in life??? What he wanted??? Wasn’t I the only thing he wished to have in his life in past?? It might be something else now I know…

My head say me “stop…!! Stop thinking about him right now…” but my heart still beats fast as soon as I think of him… he has that power you know…
Okay fine I know m boring you…
But thats what friends are for….

So now as I am done with telling all that was in my head,  I have a smile back on my face with the thought what will b ur reation reading such a huge msg.
Don’t panic, it was just a hormonal panic attacks of love, emotions…. so not only him, bit these days I feel attached with everyone around more dan before…. I think about you, manali of course, my family n friends in here…. but this one thing is so occupied that you know what now m used to this…

Just needed you to listen…  so my heart could feel ease… that,
“Ya.., baby. There is someone who knows the truth behind your stronger approach towards life… !”
That someone is you…
Love you
Gud nyt sd tc…”
Send to my girlfriend….@ 2:23 am.


So what is this attack????
Love panic attack is the name I have termed it.
It is just like any panic or psychological attacks.
But these are due to the hormonal secretions which increases during the pre days of period, ie., menses., which a women since adulthood till menopausal phase under go thorough.
Just these thoughts get actually realted with all these hormonal increments,  leading to lose of control over the conscious spectrum of emotions in brain, which in relation leads to more carving for love, attention,  caring from loved ones and all those cosy stuffs attacts you.

So, there is nothing to worry if you feel nostalgic and irritating when these lost love thoughts trigger your mind and heart these days… just talk to someone close in your life, this some one in my case is my friend n yours can be your husband,  friends, family, any relatives or colleague with whom you feel comfortable.
Once you let out your thoughts from mind, as you speak…..
You will feel relaxed… and cooldown eventually….
For atleast next 2-3 months and the torelance period will increase gradually, one moment where you’ll be adapted to deal with it.
This is based as per personal experience,  just a thought that could be proved helpful….


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Why you still on my head…

Dandling all over me, 
Still deep in my heart,
In my thoughts you pass by,
Each day…each night…
Only question remains,
Why you still on my head…?
When I have locked my heart for you…
your on my head
Your shadows make me smile,
Your touch of past, makes me go crazy…
You never was mine or you never wanted to be,
Or just moments turnout to go messy…
With all wildest thoughts,
Your love for these years,
Just make me wonder what went wrong…
shadow of yours
Still deep in my heart,
In my thoughts you pass by,
Each day…each night…

Only question remains,
Why you still on my head…?
When I have locked my heart for you…
 I understand, I did all time,
Your moods just shattered, made me go through hell…
You never was mine or you never wanted to be,
Or just our moments turnout to go messy…
With all the hates,
With all your rudeness,
Just make me wonder what made you go wrong…
the way you treated me
Still deep in my heart,
In my thoughts you pass by,
Each day…each night…
Only question remains,
Why you still on my head…?
When I have locked my heart for you…
love forever
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Confabulation of thoughts.

A plausible yet imaginary memory, 
Ended up filling my gaps of thought since years.
You were no real with a false scenery,
It was no lies but a confabulation of my thoughts dear.
It was not intentional and will never will,
But I have no you, your unreal world makes me feel true.
It’s annoying, if you’ll know you will be trill,
But believe me if I say, they seems all real even with no clue.
All the memories, I created of my own,
To fill the empty gaps, to make my life happily alive.
Everything happened all these years,
Never had believed, that it will be all such a big unreal lies.
I hope you were true with no illusions,
You are alive and breathing real and with no hallucinations of mine.
May be the moments were all created in by me,
But the imaginary image of you was true as sun’s shine.





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“Beauty in Dreams”

Closing the door from the world,
Opening your eyes into a new world,
It can be same for as to dreams,
Within no time you can abolish your dulls.
The best in dreams are that they don’t change,
As it’s not all real to chase you with fear.
You can create it and delete when you wish,
It take just seconds to lift you up with shear.
Believing in them and living it as true,
Beauty in dreams is for those who dream,
As future belongs to those,
Who trust in the beauty of  their dreams.
They are not real to hurt to if bad,
They will keep you smiling if it’s a sweet dream,
This is the beauty which lies in dreams,
It will end up teaching you, the art of living…


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I am still in love

Calender pages have been turned,
Since you have gone from my life.
You are far away but,
Never far away from my sight.
Things have been tough,
When you hurt-ed me.
Even with it now, 
Love in my heart for you can see.
I am in love still with only you,
I know the fact it’s changed for you.
I can wait for you like for lifetimes,
Only if you want this from me.
Just a note at the end to add,
I always loved you and will always will,
But your millions of apologies,
Can never bring me back to you again…



Kiss me…!


Kiss me all over,
Kiss me like it has no end,
Over the mountains,
Untill the shores get all drained.
Kiss me with ur smile,
Kiss me like never before,
Over the rainbows,
Untill the season changes it’s core.
Kiss me with your skin,
Kiss me like forever,
Over the sunsets end,
Untill the morning has it new cover.
Kiss me to alive me,
Kiss me like your making me born,
Over the eras and lives gone,
Untill all new I am grown…!



“Friends”, will always be friends…!

Once a Friend,
Will always be friends,
It may grow deeper with time,
But will never have any ends.

From the tender age friendship,
Till the grownups in life,
We always wanted to be together,
Weren’t so much crazies even with all our fights?

The classes,
The lectures,
The funniest talks and
The craziest thoughts,
We were just living out bests,
But never realised how they turned into beautiful memories,
To cherish till the life rests.

So many years passed and we just turned out to be strange,
Lets get together again,
Just like so few years ago,
To get wet again in the monsoon heavy rain.

Forgetting the misunderstanding,
Forgiving the rudes,
Clearing the ego’s and grudges,
Lets make new friendship again.

Because I know you miss me,
The way I miss you too,
Lets give ourselves a new chance,
As we were friends best together amongst very other few.


” Friendship is the strongest relationship which is divine, love, relationship is all what is written in our destiny and fate,  but our friendship is the only relationship, we are free to choose and be with forever and ever…. and I choose you’ll…!”

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When it gets hot, just chill yourself…!


The bright sparking sun,
Making it hard to beat,
November has taken a start,
And this global warming heat…!
Don’t put of your light clothes,
No winter clothing is useful here,
Gulp up the chillers in between,
To relax your regulators in mere.
Even in life and emotional world,
When life get tough and feels huge,
Living each day means sweating in disgrace,
Get your mind chill with dreamy cues.
Save the world,
Plant the greens,
Cut of the pollution,
Degrade the wastage,
Let your money save the world,
Otherwise there will come a day,
When money will be available,
But no air, food, water to buy…!

That I love you…!

Come close to me,
Walk a mile or two,
Just to let me know,
That you know, that I love you…!
Lemme tell you something,
You mean the world to me….!walk miles to me
Within all the fights,
The quarrelling nights,
All the ignoring sights,
with all broken ties,
That I love you…!
Come hold me tight,
Walk a mile or two,
Just to let me know,
That you know, that I love you…!
Lemme tell you something,
You mean the world to me…!
sweet fights
Leave all the past,
Only memories gonna last,
You and me at last,
Forever remember,
That I love you…!
Come kiss me fast,
Walk a mile or two,
Just to let me know,
That you know, that I love you…!
Lemme tell you something,
You mean the world to me…!
couple love


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Main heer bangayi, ranjha bina…

Tere intazaar mein,
Din kaat ti hai…,
Katti na raate…
Tere naal ishq karke mein,
Sab chain kho gaya…,
Kho ya na beeti baate…

ashiq banke roye…
Rab hi jane,
Aisa bhi kyu hoye…(2)

Tere deedar mein……,
Haay main heer bangayi,
Ranjha bina…
Haay mein heer bangayi,
Raanjha bina…

Sare, sudh budh bhi khoyi,
Tere naal,
Dil jo lagayi.
Sare, rashto bhi bhulaye,
Tere naal,
Waade jo nibhaye…

Tu hi nahi,
Kyu tu bana,

Tere intaar mein,
Haay mein heer bangayi,
Raanjha bina…
Haay mein heer bangayi,
Raanjha bina…